Sunday, March 17, 2013

I love you!

When I first came to America in 1996, I was lucky to find an apartment in New York City. Before coming, I had never thought of ever moving to the US. I didn't even speak English. But once here, one of the things I had to do, was to go to a Mass in Harlem.
It was within my first three months living here, that I gathered the courage to go to the famous Abyssinian Baptist Church, on 136th Street. All my friends at the time told me not to go to Harlem on my own, but being me, I went.
The Mass was spectacular, though my English was very basic, I grasped everything I could of the sermons given by different people (Sorry I'm not a Church goer, so I don't know the titles).
At one point, something happened, and even though I was new to this, I got it. Everyone stood up, and placed their left hand on the person next to them. then together, we had to say: "I love you, and there's nothing you can do about it."
This was my revelation, my light, my joy.
I have since, applied my "Love your life, and Life is beautiful" motto, throughout my life. In my dance classes, I always remind people to love themselves, and to see the light.
Here is a little something I would like to share with my friends.
Watch the video, and download the app, if you have a smartphone.
The app is basically a messaging app, that will begin all your messages with "I LOVE YOU."
I LOVE YOU - Call me!

Not sure who came up with this, or why, but what I'm sure about, is that at the end of the day we all want to be loved.
So what the video, ( ) share it with your friends, and remind people how much you love them.
My dear readers, I love you and there's nothing you can do about it.

Tuesday, March 5, 2013

7 years of sobriety...

Today is one more day in the reality of sobriety. That ONE more day adds to 7 years... It freaks me a bit to think of it as so much time, as over the years I know the only way I did it, was to think of TODAY.
In a way it comforts me to know that all I have to do, is think of staying sober today only. Once tomorrow comes, I'll deal with it.
I used to drink to get into oblivion as fast as possible. It wasn't about the glamour of holding a glass of champagne, of savoring a good glass of red wine. OBLIVION was the only requirement.
My last glass black-out began gently while guests were attending my annual "Academy Award Party." After the Awards were given and the guests were gone, I was left finishing a cheap red wine in a plastic cup...
The next day was my last hangover, my last time cleaning my wino smelling apartment and my last time puking bile...
Saba as 'Speaks' in "The Sneaky Boa Brothers" -  2013

Since then, I have had a relationship with a great guy, ended the relationship, stopped teaching dance, started teaching dance...again, lost my adopted father, moved to Jersey, created a film production company, won two awards, produced, wrote, starred in many movies, and yet all I see is ONE MORE DAY.
No matter how long it has been since my last drink, and no matter what I do, I look at my sobriety as the most vulnerable and the most valuable possession I have.
TODAY, I realize that if I approach everything the way I approach my sobriety, I should get where I want to be.
They say ONE DAY AT A TIME, but if the day gets too long, I go one hour, one minute, one moment at a time.

Thank you for being a part of my sobriety and a part of my life.