Tuesday, March 5, 2013

7 years of sobriety...

Today is one more day in the reality of sobriety. That ONE more day adds to 7 years... It freaks me a bit to think of it as so much time, as over the years I know the only way I did it, was to think of TODAY.
In a way it comforts me to know that all I have to do, is think of staying sober today only. Once tomorrow comes, I'll deal with it.
I used to drink to get into oblivion as fast as possible. It wasn't about the glamour of holding a glass of champagne, of savoring a good glass of red wine. OBLIVION was the only requirement.
My last glass black-out began gently while guests were attending my annual "Academy Award Party." After the Awards were given and the guests were gone, I was left finishing a cheap red wine in a plastic cup...
The next day was my last hangover, my last time cleaning my wino smelling apartment and my last time puking bile...
Saba as 'Speaks' in "The Sneaky Boa Brothers" -  2013

Since then, I have had a relationship with a great guy, ended the relationship, stopped teaching dance, started teaching dance...again, lost my adopted father, moved to Jersey, created a film production company, won two awards, produced, wrote, starred in many movies, and yet all I see is ONE MORE DAY.
No matter how long it has been since my last drink, and no matter what I do, I look at my sobriety as the most vulnerable and the most valuable possession I have.
TODAY, I realize that if I approach everything the way I approach my sobriety, I should get where I want to be.
They say ONE DAY AT A TIME, but if the day gets too long, I go one hour, one minute, one moment at a time.

Thank you for being a part of my sobriety and a part of my life.
Best.
Saba

2 comments:

  1. You should be incredibly proud of yourself. You are such a stunningly amazing person, and one who changed my life when I was really down, and you probably don't even know it. Keep taking it as TODAY only. It's the only way, and you are not alone.

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