In a way it comforts me to know that all I have to do, is think of staying sober today only. Once tomorrow comes, I'll deal with it.
I used to drink to get into oblivion as fast as possible. It wasn't about the glamour of holding a glass of champagne, of savoring a good glass of red wine. OBLIVION was the only requirement.
My last glass black-out began gently while guests were attending my annual "Academy Award Party." After the Awards were given and the guests were gone, I was left finishing a cheap red wine in a plastic cup...
The next day was my last hangover, my last time cleaning my wino smelling apartment and my last time puking bile...
|Saba as 'Speaks' in "The Sneaky Boa Brothers" - 2013|
Since then, I have had a relationship with a great guy, ended the relationship, stopped teaching dance, started teaching dance...again, lost my adopted father, moved to Jersey, created a film production company, won two awards, produced, wrote, starred in many movies, and yet all I see is ONE MORE DAY.
No matter how long it has been since my last drink, and no matter what I do, I look at my sobriety as the most vulnerable and the most valuable possession I have.
TODAY, I realize that if I approach everything the way I approach my sobriety, I should get where I want to be.
They say ONE DAY AT A TIME, but if the day gets too long, I go one hour, one minute, one moment at a time.
Thank you for being a part of my sobriety and a part of my life.